I’m back!  Haven’t been up to writing since I posted “A Harbor Full of Grace” in October.  Tried to stay hopeful, kept moving however I felt, but my depression worsened and I was admitted to Sheppard Pratt the end of November — spent my 85th birthday there on December 3rd, dear Kieran visiting with cupcakes for all. Was in Harford Memorial Hospital last year on my 84th — really don’t want to make this a tradition!

I’ve become something of an authority on the merits and demerits of various behavioral health centers — mental isn’t mentioned much. Sheppard Pratt was absolutely the best — caring, excellent staff; private room and bath; varied, decent food; music, exercise and other therapy programs;  Lexapro, a different anti-depressant; and ECT (shock treatment).  I’d been reluctant, and my son was apprehensive at my age, adding I’d been somewhat forgetful after it was administered in 2000, sixteen years ago.  But it was effective again.  (And I don’t remember being forgetful before.)

Kieran wryly remarked I’d been admitted to Mercy Hospital on Long Island soon after “W” Bush was elected president, courtesy of Florida’s hanging chads and the Supreme Court.  This time soon after Donald Trump’s mind-boggling win.   Coincidence?

Have been home for a month — happily celebrated my granddaughter Maeve’s Christening, Christmas, and the New Year. And my family, friends, and pet Angel have been loving and comforting. I’m grateful for every simple pleasure — reading The New York Times” and “The Washington Post, sipping my now decaf morning coffee.  And when I see that our soon-to-be-presidentTrump has once more erupted, tweeting praise of Putin, maligning the media for reporting what he says and does, insulting our “Intelligence” agencies, castigating  critics — I’m wide awake, don’t miss caffeine.  Behavioral Health, Donald?

Today is January 6th, the Feast of the Epiphany, remembering the Magi’s visit to the Christ Child in a humble Bethlehem stable. My Merriam-Webster’s Collegiate Dictionary states that epiphany also means: “a sudden manifestation or perception of the essential nature or meaning of something,” and “an intuitive grasp of reality through something (as an event) usually simple and striking,” and “an illuminating discovery, realization, or disclosure.”

I may have come across a couple of those of late,  wanted to publish this today since there may be a metaphorical, metaphysical convergence here — old English majors can’t resist them.  Will tell more in a future post.  But for now I wish you and your loved ones — even some you’re not that crazy about — a happy, healthy, blessed New Year, and only troubles you can handle with the help of God.


  1. Kevin said

    Happy New Year to you as well Eileen. Looking forward to your next post revealing your epiphanies. -Kevin

    • Thanks, Kevin, for your comment. Epiphanies may sound a bit pretentions!?! but I’ve learned a lot lately. Love all you wonderful Jacksons. xo Eileen

  2. Chris Jackson said

    As always, I love that your blog focuses on the positive in spite of any challenges you may be facing. So very sorry you’ve had your recent health issues but so very happy you are on the other side of them now and doing so well! Love you!

    • Love you back! So good to see the Jackson Six here last weekend. Wish you all the best possible New Year.
      xo Aunt Eileen

  3. Kris Rus said

    Hi Eileen, Happy New Year! I’m so glad you’re feeling better! Hope we can talk very SOON. Love, Kris

    • Happy New Year to you, too, Kris! And to Joel and your Mom and other loved ones. So good to be back to myself!?!
      Love, Eileen

  4. Kathleen Runacres said

    Happy New Year Eileen..welcome back and stay well😘K

    Sent from my iPhone


    • Thanks, Kathy. I know you’ll always miss Don, but hope as time goes by you’ll be comforted. It’s good to be back and I’m doing everything I can to stay well. Taking an exercise class (Zumba Toning!?!) as senior center, volunteering at nearby hospital in orthopedic center, helping with grandkids once a week. Blessings for us all in 2017.
      Love, Eileen

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